Fuck it I like chief Keef

            Yup I can ralate to this song according to some people I'm a sapo in other words I'm guilty by association because of my family, what they don't know is I'm being fucked with too what ever I don't got time for paranoid assholes. I got my own paranoia to deal with, I got my own shit to deal with. So fuck it man character defamation that's that shit I don't like, In other words go choke on a dick hater I'm not that guy.

The buttons have been polished.

Well I spoke to the recruiter...

It turns out in the fucked up state of California I can get a c.d.l. without a license.

So I'm set my mind has been made up i'm one hundred percent sure 

that this is something I need to do  to get where I want to be.

So I have another week or two until I'll be off to trucker school.

I just need to get some medical documents and a storage unit and then i'll be off on an adventure.

Once i'm on the road i'll be ready to write about things other than fucked up family dynamics and the likes.

I'll probably write about meditation and being a trans-something and of course about my travels, and after two years I will write about  returning to Tel Aviv and Gothic girls and etc,etc,etc, so until next time 

paca kroshka 

hugs and kisses and all that good stuff

The delusion is over I changed my mind

I am not a peasant 

I am Noble and I am cock diesel 

born to fuck all those haters out there 

and fuck those vampires

who made their money on my families

misfortune 

I'm in this life to own it

Lets all team up against him so we won't be divided

OK here is how it is 

Some family's are so fucked up that they need to manufacture a bad guy

so everyone will rally around  the flag.

Some families can't function without a bad guy or a boogeyman .

Sometimes it's a grandparent, sometimes it's a brother or a sister, the main point is 

that there is always a selected bad guy.

So now I'm two for two , my mom and my brother never pick up the phone,

 and the cousins I stayed with chose me.

Well when I'm gone or I stop trying to be a part of their lives who will be the next bad guy?

Well my cousins took in a new person,and my mom and my brother are good at manufacturing 

the bad guy It could be my mom's boyfriend it could be any other poor schmuck.

Honestly take a look at yourselves and your family dynamics and see if you fit too.

  

Right an epiphany at work today

For the past three days people have been acting cold towards old 

Emma Lee. I guess it started the morning some shitbird I'm privileged to know.

I'm serious about the shitbird part really it's not a privilege. 

This little fucker is a manipulative vampire who lives to gossip and put people down.

If your this fuckers friend he will try it on you.

Anyway I got off topic 

I had a dream to be a warrior in The Israeli military,instead I got to be in the rabbinical corps.

It really shook my confidence, well my dear vampire friend decided to open the wound 

and rub salt in it. He contacted me on Facebook to tell me the army is treating him better than me. 

In short I bought into it and it really fucked up my week.

I tried to explain all this negativity that boiled up into my system 

but I couldn't express the emotions with words or the guy I was talking too just didn't understand it.

So now I have another scar because a few people I look up to give me the silent treatment now.

Well I learned I got to take the lesson and walk away.

whats the lesson 

You gotta pick who will and who won't affect you,and it takes more than just 

saying ok I'm letting go all of the shit from the past in order to be free today.

I don't know exactly how to let it go but I know I have to find a way.

"your that mad at me?" You G-d damn better believe it

I was on the train today minding my business looking at all the graffiti.

I looked over my shoulder and turned back to my business.

Some over sensitive gump tried to get on my case.

I told him he was tripping and got back to my business

Well hot damn here it is

I don't like seeing kids running for there lives cause some fuck up robbed the 99 cent store.

I don't like hearing about twelve year olds getting gunned down in front of their house.

I don't like hearing about the times me and my mom slept  inside a bath tub because of drive bys.

I don't like remembering the bodies lined up on the side walk

I don't like people claiming they represent and protect a neighborhood when they destroy it.

I don't like gang bangers, I don't like politicians, I don't like people deciding how I should,

or what I should,or where I should.

I'll think and believe what I want, I'll associate with who I want, I'll wear what I want.

If you got a problem with it go to another country, cause America just aint the place for you.

On some treal shit 

Fuck a welfare state where papa Sam will take care of you from the cradle to the grave

I need uncle sam to protect me and pave my roads, I need Uncle sam

to help people empower themselves. I need uncle Sam to figure out what works and what doesn't.

Educate yourself read a history book and recognize the patterns in time 

that keep happening and try something new.

  

They caught me listening to Rush Limbaugh"crunchy mussar"

I wanna start this post with a 

big fuck you to all you dematards who don't like people who decide to get themselves informed before making a decision. Two i wanna give a bigger fuck you to those people at the voter registration place on Atlantic ave in bixby knolls who lied to me and told me it was too late to register. 

Just because you figured i wasn't gonna vote for Obama. 

Your right I was gonna vote libertarian.

You fucks sit and bitch and wine about I.d. requirements to vote ,

Than when I come through you lie to me because i'm voting for the wrong guy....fuck you.

Don't front like you represent freedom, you represent power hunger.

You talk about freedom and liberation yet you empower no one with your bullshit.

Instead you keep your voting blocks dependent you keep your voting blocks 

from becoming empowered. Your great guilt driven ideal of European socialism doesn't work,

my case and point Portugal, Spain, Ireland,Italy,Greece, Cyprus,.

Furthermore having your gumptards followers hating on me for exercising my freedoms of

Information thought speech only makes me hate you more.